2nd Year

2nd year of degree.

Hell year.

2 research colloquiums in 1 semester.

(For you information, research colloquium is an event where you present you study to other students and a lecturer/tutor, and it's a time for others to shoot you till death.)


2 research colloquiums = 2 studies


It's only week 4, and I am mentally exhausted.

Last week was the longest week I ever had. Been burning midnight oil for the proposal of our studies. The routine for last week was search & read journals - meeting -search & read journals - sleep - search & read journals - meeting - search & read journals - sleep and it went on and on for one week.

1st day of Week 4
8am: Due date for the proposal of our experiment. Tensed.
3 quizzes in 1 lecture. Tensed.


Defense with my dean.
I was so so so nervous because it's the 1st time to conduct our own study. Luckily our proposal was approved and found that my dean wasn't scary at all! He's trying to help my group to conduct a better study. Really appreciate that =) I'm hoping my advanced research lecturer will be as nice as him, but apparently that's not going to happen.

2nd Year

Please give me a break!!!

记忆

如果人的记忆也如那些记忆卡般，只能储存有限的记忆，那么你会选择存有哪些回忆？快乐的？悲伤的？还是痛苦的？我想大部分都会选择储存快乐的回忆吧？至少那些回忆是让人愉悦的。如果只能储存有限的记忆，那么我会选择储存人生的酸甜苦辣和喜怒哀乐。也许你会觉得我很贪心，但是我并没有说我要记录全部的酸甜苦辣和喜怒哀乐。我会选择那些刻骨铭心的，值得回忆的。但是哪些回忆住的储存，哪些不知的，我想那就因人而异了。

我们总是说如果，可惜如果并不存在。如果人的记忆真的有限，那么科学家们就不会花费那么多的心思去研究人类的记忆。刚好相反，人的记忆是无限的。它的潜能是未知的。我们经历的一切，看到的一切，听到的一切，全都输入了我们大脑的记忆体了。

o偶然间看到林詠琛的一句话：记忆是最大的恩赐，也是最大的惩罚。是的，记忆是恩赐，因为拥有记忆让我们可以回忆起那些我们经历过的快乐时光，回忆起那些我们看到或听到有趣的人事物。同时记忆也是惩罚，因为它提醒着我们的遗憾，提醒着我们所犯过的错误，如梦魇般缠着我们一生。青峰写给阿密特的《掉了》有一句写道：回忆是最可怕的敌人，贴切十分。

记忆，它提醒着快乐与悲伤。

黑特 short sem

I hate short sem.我是真的怕了short sem. 7 个礼拜，真的过得还蛮快的，这个星期就是最后一个星期了。short sem真的把我折磨得不成人形了。什么东西都得堆到最后一刻才能开始做，我就这么连续开了好几个礼拜的夜车。换来的是咳嗽+感冒。更糟的是，下个礼拜就是考试了。我只要能够好好复习然后好好去考试，我就很满足了。不行，我必须去找仙丹！哈哈，我在痴人说梦话。但愿老妈跟我说的那个药会把我的病赶快治好。

请原谅一个病人的疯言疯语， 谢谢。哈哈哈哈。

長大

長大了，是不是越來越難找個談心的朋友？

给自己的警惕

路遥知马力，日久见人心

别单纯地相信在你眼前的那个人，你不知道他正在戴哪一个面具。

雜談

  連續轉載了三篇我最近讀過還蠻有感觸的文章，純粹轉載來分享。最喜歡我連載的第一篇文章，你能擁有的全部，不是別的，就是你自己。說得很對，我能用用的全部，除了我自己，我還能擁有什麽？名？利？財？這一些都只是曇花一現，終究會離我而去的。而我死去，我也只能遺留在人間，什麽都帶不走。

  今天公佈成績了。我不覺得很難過，也沒什麽好難過的，都已經成爲歷史了，沒什麽好在乎的了（說得自己好像很豁達似的，哈哈）。也沒有說這個學期要發奮圖強之類的熱血精神。我只是覺得一切都是等價的。我付出了多少，我的成績都反映出來了。沒什麽好辯論的。對，是沒有很好，但是也沒有很差。說要發奮圖強嘛，其實一點也沒有。我只是覺得我盡力了（每個學期都這麽說的啦！）反正我還是好好的活著，不想要加入什麽成績大戰，我只想默默地完成我的學業。

  前幾天很認真地聼周傑倫的新歌《超人不會飛》。旋律我是不怎麽喜歡，但是歌詞卻莫名地道出了我的心聲。其中有一句：專輯一出就必須是冠軍/ 拍了電影就必須大賣。對阿，爲什麽周傑倫=票房保證？=專輯大賣？爲什麽啊？爲什麽一定要這樣貼上個標簽？天王也是個人啊，他不是神，爲什麽他一定要達到這些目標？爲什麽這個標簽不是貼在別人身上？就因爲他是‘周傑倫’嗎？這有點説不過去吧？不，是非常説不過去。我能夠體會這兩句話當中的感受，我‘XXX’難道就一定是好學生？難道就一定是乖孩子嗎？我呸（請原諒我的用詞），我實在無法克制内心的憤怒，爲什麽考取好成績的一定是我？我只是一個普通得不能再普通的人，我有權利考得很差吧？我爲什麽要活在你們的標準之下？你們是我的誰？真是狗屁不通。抒發完了，雖然沒有很痛快，但是那感覺其實還不錯！

我第三個學期就這麽開始了，7個星期后，估計就會糊裏糊塗的結束了我第一年的大學生活。

[轉載]小結論

1. 犯错不一定可怕。通常错误很少是致命的，多半是对错 误做出错误的反应，导致了致命的结果。


2. 认错的好处至少有一个，那就是：从此不用再喂食那个 错误更多的谎言。谎言也不会再继续长大。这样我们才有机会可以开始作点不用说谎的实事。


3. 最大的挫折往往不来自挫折本身，而来自预期的失落。 最大的愤怒，也往往不来自愤怒本身，而来自于对方没有按照我们的期望行事。愤怒就某个程度而言，是挫折的同类。先处理失落的部份，会让挫折变得容易解决许多。

侯文咏

  

[轉載]別急著覺得自己失敗

ART by : BARRY MCGEE

別急着覺得自己失敗，

很可能，

你祇是還沒找到你會成功的那塊領土而已。

古斯巴達社會，

討厭算術，認為學算術，就是想賺錢，很可恥。

如果你很會算術，

在那裡一定覺得自己很失敗。

換成現在，算術好，絕對被當優點了。

世界很大，

成功的定義有很多種，

在找到你的戰場之前，

別輕易說自己是失敗者。

蔡康永

[轉載] 你能擁有的全部

你很重要,因為你就是你能擁有的全部。

你存在,整個世界才存在。

你看得到陽光,整個世界才看得到陽光。

你失去平衡,世界就失去平衡。

你消失,世界就消失。

所以你很重要,你就是你能擁有的全部。

蔡康永

Yes or No

A thought suddenly came to my mind: should I take minor? Trying to delete this thought as I've heard from seniors that taking minor is really tiring. But unfortunately, this thought just stuck in my mind. Well, I surrendered by taking out the psychology handbook and looked through the course structure.

Ok, I have to take 7 free electives in total through out the 3-year course. Look at the total subjects offered in minor, 7 subjects too. Since the total subjects is the same, why not minor?It looks 'nice' in my transcript. Hmm..let's see what are the minors that are related to my current elective, principle of microeconomics. There are International Business and Finance. Well, I'll go for International Business, no doubt. Finance is just not for me.

So, here comes the question, should I take minor? I have to take an extra subject as the last subject of Int. Business requires a total of 3 Year 2 Management subjects, the list has only 2 Year 2 Management subjects. Thinking this is the worst part? Then you're wrong. The worst part is I have no holiday in July and August. Why so? Because the business department is having a long sem while psychology department is having a short sem. This means that while my other course mates are enjoying the long holiday, I'm stuck in my minor.

Ish...hate this!!!

Results

I've been quite nervous since Wednesday night, but lucky me, i got to sleep really tight :)
HELP is really slow in releasing the results, waited for the whole morning and the results were not out yet. Frustrated, i ended up shutting down my laptop and then continue reading my novel.

45 mins later, I was not in a mood of reading at all, so I decided to switch on my laptop again, hoping that this time the results were out. I didn't pray for getting good results or whatever, just hoping that the results were there. (Thank god the speed of the internet connection was fast) When I signed in my account, ah ha...results were out! Satisfactory, I would say. A- for Business Comm., B+ for Project Management (guess such good grade is due to the assignments, good group members are important!), and B for Research Methodology and Introduction to Psychology 2.

I've received sms from 2 friends asking my grade, I got the same grade as them, 3.4/4. They're not satisfied, should I feel the same way as them? But I was kinda satisfied with it, being a 1st year and 1st sem student, such grades were considered not bad. (Giving lotz of excuses to make me feel better, haha.)

Well, what's the most important is that I've tried my best, so no regrets at all ;)